This is a good feeling. I haven’t written anything on here since August. But it feels good to be back and I am back to explain my prolonged hiatus.

I have taken breaks before due to writers bloc or just not being able to find any inspiration. But the last 6 months of 2019 was probably the worst in my life. Medically, personally, and professionally. I have never been more tested in my own strength.

Friends, although now they’re more like acquaintances, I used to party with suddenly turned away from me. Started talking about how I had let go of myself or why I grew out my beard or why I looked the way I did. Not once did anyone ask me personally if I was okay, rather they gossiped with each other. Having a laugh at my expense while I was going through the hardest times of my life. Luckily, its not hard to see through weak people like them, it just makes me stronger.

The truth is I had let go of myself. I keep myself to certain standard when it comes to appearance. I actually take pride in it. All that went out the window when I was going though what I was going through. I just truly let go because it didn’t feel like it mattered anymore.

I couldn’t even talk to the one person I wanted to the most. The one person who’s advice would probably have pulled me out of the hole I dug myself. But thats a story for another time.

I’m just here to tell you that I am back. I have taken care of the issues I was having and I feel just as good. I came out of the darkness a better person, and with a better judge of character. I have learned that you can drink and dance together with people and the same people will run their mouth about you the first chance they get.

Anyway bygones and whatnot. I don’t live in the past. But best believe I will not fall for it again. I thank the people who helped me out of the hole, you guys are the real deal and the only ones who actually gave an ounce of care in the World if I was okay or not. Looking forward to expressing myself even more in the near future.

“A boomerang returns back to the person who throws it.But first, while moving in a circle, it hits its target.So does gossip.”



We are all on this journey of self-discovery. To find out who we are and why we have been put on this Earth. What is our purpose? what am I supposed to do? Where am I supposed to go?

But these answers lie within you. Deep within. You have to war with yourself constantly and take back your right from the demons holding it hostage within.

Most people lose this war and lose it again. But the few that make it through to the other side are blessed with divine retribution. They are the true symbol for hope and salvation.

The war is dangerous and you will suffer countless defeats. But winning the war only takes one moment of self-reflection. It doesn’t matter when that moment arises, but never stop searching for it.

The story of the journey is worth more than it’s weight in gold.

~Who in the world am I? Ah, that’s the great puzzle~

Une Nuit​ Froide

A cold snowy night. icicles form on a nearby street window from the remnants of last night’s cold showers. A cold and wet park bench is where I have made my temporary residence.

I glimpse at my phone to check the time, a quarter past two in the morning. I realize I have been sitting idle for almost two hours, a feat I previously thought impossible. I was never one to slow down and think, but here I find myself in such a life-defining situation.

I pray for catharsis so I can remove myself, just for a while, for this train-wreck I have caused. But it never came. And so I sit, wondering where did it all go so terribly wrong.

I relive each moment in our history, trying to solve this unsolvable puzzle. We used to be so jovial that it made people jealous, but we were also equally at war with each other. I hope you find what you’re looking for in this labyrinthian maze of life because I found mine and I know how much joy it can bring.

I am also familiar with the darkness it can bring once that is lost, so hold on to it for dear life

I sit here, trying to decipher this encrypted mind of mine. But it’s key lies with you.

~Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.~


Rosa Himmel

There are many things that I would die for in this World. You are the only thing that I would live for.

You make living the easiest thing to do, it is so effortless, so extraordinarily simple. I often stare at the pink skies questioning the existence of everything, but the thought of questioning your existence feels like an er that cannot be forgiven.

The important question here is, are you willing to do the same for me?

Are you willing to fully expose yourself to me? to be utterly vulnerable and not hide behind a facade with me? herein lies the nuance.

The underlying truth is, all this is not reciprocal. You are not willing to make the same claims as me, so why should I settle for someone who cannot live for me?

I cannot strip another of a chance to be my forever, that is a power I do not yet possess. But I can still unlock myself from these shackles I have put myself in. Shackles that represent the lengths I would go to spend my forever with the wrong person.

I free myself and continue on my journey to find my forever with nothing but the pink skies to guide me.

~I will find you. In the farthest corner, I will find you.~

Starry Night

I find myself lost most of the time. Lost in these stories that I make up in my own mind, stories about you and I living our forever.

I am looking at you while I write this. We’re under the stars on this cold night talking about our future together while the warmth of your body against mine makes me forget all my woes.

I stare at you while you look away. Engraining this moment deep in my memory. I wish I was the plenipotentiary of time himself so that I could live in this moment forever. But what is the point of a moment if it is not fleeting.

As we embrace underneath the constellations you tell me that I am your forever and beyond.

How I wish I could stop the sands of time from flowing. Time is the most torturous music that the planets make.

Do you have a 100 words for me, love? Because I have only 3.

~True love stories never have endings~

Dil Ki Baat

The heart. One of the most important organs in our body. Not only does it keep pumping blood into all of our organs, it also holds our most precious dreams and desires. But above all else, it holds our truest love.

There’s a saying in Hindi: “Dil Ki Baat, Kabhi Dil Me Nahi Rakhte.” which roughly means never keep what your heart truly desires to yourself.

Tell it to the World and scream it from the mountain tops, because then only will you be able to seize it with both hands.

I know they say if you want to make God laugh tell him your plans. But if you truly want something with unwavering desire, then God can only play witness.

Love is the best thing we as humans do, it is the only thing that transcends dimensions of space-time and is the true essence of living.

Worry not of what the World might think of your pursuit. As long as you stay true to your path, nothing can stop you from achieving greatness.

The space even beyond the stars awaits you, my dear.

~ you’ll never find peace of mind until you listen to your heart~




The Shire

An essence of fairy dust is all that is left of my travels. It all started many moons ago and has allowed me to see where the Earth ends.

I made many friends during my path, friends who helped me defeat my inner foes and turn me into an honourable man, if only it was the same for Brutus.

These travels have left me with fond memories that I will cherish until my time on this Earth has ended, memories that will live on through my children and their children after that.

As Twilight’s last gleam shines over the horizon, I take my first steps into my old home. A place that has a legacy deep within its roots.

I turn around to see that my path has ended and I can now, finally, retire into my peaceful slumber with nothing but my cherished memories to keep me company.

A legacy, that is what my memories will turn into.

~Not all those who wander are lost.~